Open RP Post!

[krasnaya_vdova]

• Leave me a starter, an idea, a picture, whatever you like! Give me as much or as little detail as you like and I'll work something out!
• No brainwashing or related themes without prior discussion, but otherwise have at! I can work her into any canonpoint.
• M/F for shipping, open to anything for friendship.
• Open to anyone, whether or not we've played before, crosscanon, whatever. Give me things!
• Open to smut, but if you're gonna have sexy references in the top level label the subject line pls.
• Hit me up on Plurk (natalia_vdova) or Dicord (natalia_vdova#0150) or PM if you want to plot something.

Comments

[krasnaya_vdova]

[She gets that too, because she's scared of herself when she dreams, that she might hurt someone.]

I don't. I believe what you say, though.

I'm not sure there is 'working through it'.
How do you work through things that were taken from you?
Or the things you see.

[No, she is not having a good night.]

[jamesbbarnes]

It's not about moving on like they claim.

It's about taking what happened and using it for something else. To help people.

They made us weapons but we don't got to be like that anymore.

Those skills can be used against them to take out all those assholes.

[ Her night sounded a lot like his and while it made him feel less alone, he never wanted anyone to relate to him. Hydra tended to steal everything, all the humanity in a person until nothing existed but a gasping shell they were able to manipulate.

How could someone ever move on from such a thing? ]

[krasnaya_vdova]

That sounds better.

I used to think I could be a hero, but I don't think that's quite right.
I still want to help. Even if I'm still dangerous.

[She can't help the touch of a smile at the suggestion of using what they were made into to take out all those assholes. Being something more than a shell they could put what they wanted onto.

She understood why he wanted to be put under. She knows what it is to be terrified there might be a way for someone to turn you into something you don't want to be. She struggles with it herself.]

Sometimes I'm scared. Of what they wanted me to bed.

[jamesbbarnes]

That hero label isn't seen the same by everyone. What is a hero to some is a vigilante by others.

You'll never win trying to adhere to those shitty labels.

We just have to do what we can.

[ Being a weapon terrified him because of all the things he caused in the past. No matter what he had to do, he never wanted to be used again, even if it meant drastic measures like he used with going under.

The scientists reassured him the words were gone but he still worried all the time. The nightmares always rested in the back of his mind. ]

I know. They'll be good days and bad days.

We'll never get away from that.